mood swings

so yesterday i tried to stay calm; but a combination of home-sickness, pms and seriously confusing class and probably not enough sleep left me a jello-ey mess. I was seriously walking around biting my lip to keep from sobbing. Finally broke down after roomate left for meeting. I tried to read harry potter but i was at the end (you know right after the really big thing happens) and that didn't really lift my spirits. so i finally just called my mom and in between sniffling and blowing my nose managed to get my point accross. Before bed cheered myself up a bit more by reading Get Fuzzy under my blanket with a flashlight- have soo always wanted to do that. So i think i've survived my major crises, hopefully skies will all be beautiful and sunny from here on. (right...)



But seriously today was much better. latter called my mom so she could know i wasn't always extremely emotionaly disfunctional and she said they were going to see one of timmy's plays at RPI friday... and i get to go too!! happy dance...dededededede... she's picking me up tomarrow around noon after my last class and i'm going home for the weekend. My mom thinks it might help if i can tackle some of this really confusing bio crap in a familiar setting. I think it'll also be good simple because i don't plan to participate in the seriously heavy drinking that is going to occur this being the first full weekend with upperclassmen.

My roomate is currently at a swiming/diving team party. apparently swimmers are huge idiots according to susan (susan being my roomate) they like to get really drunk at really inconvenient times.. like the night before meets and such.

there's lots of howling coming from down the hall... what the hell is going on?? college is so random. i think that's the best word to describe it. both tuesday and wednesday night i was going to bed when roaving accopella groups wandered through our hall. one time me and my roomate were just sitting in our room when someone burst in yelling "PARTY AT THE FARM, WANNA COME!!??" we declined having no idea what the hell the "farm" is nor who this person was, nor why they apparently wanted to party at such a random time. yesterday someone knocked on my door asking if i wanted a smoothie.... a smoothie??? why.. at 11 at night would someone ask you if i wanted a smoothie. alchohal i suspect is behind much of it... sooo random

anyways i'm fine, but still miss all of you super much!!

Love Yous!!!